Laura's World!

January 31st, 2005

03:08 pm

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this is for all those people that are mad cause I don't write in my live journal anymore
(x) snuck out of the house
(x) gotten lost in your city
(x) saw a shooting star
( ) been to any other countries besides the united states
( )had a serious surgery
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
( ) kissed a stranger
( ) hugged a stranger
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
(x) done drugs
(x) had alcohol
( ) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
( ) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( ) made out in an elevator
( ) slept in an elevator
(x) swore at your parents
( ) kicked a guy where it hurts.
(x) been in love
(x) been close to love
( ) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
( ) broken a bone
(x) been high
( ) skinny-dipped
( ) skipped school
(x) flashed someone
( ) saw a therapist
(x) done the splits
(x) played spin the bottle
(x) gotten stitches
( ) had an IV
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone
( ) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed into a friend's car (haha very funny)
( ) been to Japan
( ) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
(x) been fired
( ) had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) stole something from your job
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
(x) saw someone die
( ) been to Africa
( ) Driven over 400 miles in one day
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(x) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of yourself on fire
( ) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been snowboarding
( ) Met someone in person from the internet.
(x) Been moshing at a rock show
(x) Cut yourself on purpose
( ) Been to a moto cross show
( ) lost a child
( ) gone to college
( ) graduated college
( ) done hard drugs
(x) tried killing yourself
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now

December 1st, 2004

10:02 pm

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Your Life Soundtrack
Created by Lindele-Elena and taken 62 times on bzoink!
Intro	Cabaret Soundtrack-Wilkommen
Seeing The One You Love	Weezer-El Scorcho
Life Is Okay	Seether-Fine Again
Break-up Song	Sugarcult-Pretty Girl
Happy Time	Reel Big Fish-Beer
Dying	Squirrel Nut Zippers-Hell
Deep In Thought	Smashing Pumpkins-Killer
Fight Scene	Mortal Kombat Theme Song lol
Day In Your Life	No Doubt-Just a Girl
Missing Someone	Ashlee Simpson-Pieces of Me
Sleeping Song	Incubus-Aqueous Transmission
Dirty-Dirty	Ashlee Simpson-LaLa
The World Is Hell	Marilyn Manson-Mechanical Animal
First Kiss	The Cars-You're Just What I Needed
At A Concert	Sugarcult-Bouncing off the Walls
Angry At A Friend	Papa Roach-Blood
Jealousy	Joydrop-Beautiful Like You
Being Yourself	Gavin DeGraw-I Don't Want to Be
Trying To Tell Someone How You Really Feel	Goo Goo Dolls-Iris
Regret	Maroon 5-She Will be Loved
Randomness	Avril Lavigne-Freak Out
You Kill Someone	Papa Roach-Getting Away with Murder
Heartbroken	Vertical Horizon-Best I Ever Had
Bored	California (OC theme song)
Partying	ACDC-I Love Rock n' Roll
Being Insane	Green Day-Basket Case
Remembering Something Long Forgotten	Slipknot-Before I Forget
Concert	Aquabats-Pool Party
Dying	Avril Lavigne-Slipped Away
Ending Song	Jimmy Buffet-Lime in the Coconut
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November 27th, 2004

05:49 pm

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Oh man I am getting so bored with everything. Nothing is new or exciting and I can't stand it. I'm never surprised by anything, its really quite sad. But other than that everything is peachy keen...well except for my eye being scratched but whatever.

Current Mood: meh

November 24th, 2004

12:28 pm

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Middle school sucked...elementary school rocked!
I really wish this immature middle school bullshit would end. When do people actually grow up? I see some adults act even more immature than middle schoolers and it just makes me wonder do we ever actually grow out of that stage? I don't think a lot of us ever do. We still seek revenge and look for the easiest way to get someone back for something as stupid as "they didn't say they liked my new sweater." People can be so fucking ridiculous. I'm not excluding myself at all from this since I have been known to try and get people back for petty shit but lately it seems like I am back in middle school. I hated middle school for many reasons but the biggest reason was because of the social shit. Everyone treated everyone like crap in middle school. They excluded friends from things to get an upper hand and feel better about themselves, they told friends secrets that you had told them and made them swear not to repeat, there was a lot of backstabbing. I used to think that high school would be different, there wouldn't be this kind of drama but I was completely wrong. I realize now that this never goes away...people are always going to act like selfish assholes that no matter what will try and make themself look better than everyone and step on anyone (even good friends) to get there. I really hope college is different but I dont think its going to be...the rest of my life is going to be like middle school only in a different setting with different people in different situations. I wish I could go back to elementary school. If you really think about it that is when people were the most socially mature. Yeah there were bullies or whatever, you had enemies but you knew who your friends were. I think we could all learn a few things from little kids, they hardly judge, they are true to their friends, and they could have the greatest time playing with a couple sticks. When did we loose these abilities? What happened? We figured this was growing up...not always being nice to people, fine you can't always be nice to everyone all the time but when did society decide that TREATING PEOPLE LIKE SHIT=MATURE? I think I would rather be considered immature if maturity means I have to step all over people that I care about.

Current Mood: pensive
Current Music: If I Had-Eminem

November 22nd, 2004

09:10 pm

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Well yeah today was interesting...first i woke up at about 12ish and realized im really lazy. WOW! But yeah...Hannah and I went job hunting around the Carmel Mtn. area and we got alot of applications which i wanted to procrastinate on so they are still incomplete and in Hannah's car along with part of Dan's present (although he gave mine to me early;)) We went to mervyns and i discovered that Dan was wrong and was like OMG my man was actually wrong...I almost couldn't believe that i was right it was so vindicating:)...so yeah Dan your wrong hehe... then Hannah and I went to some other places but she had a dentist appointment so then we went to that and headed to barnes & nobles where i picked up White Oleander and headed to the corner of the store i usually read in and started reading... that book is Awesome!!!:) But yeah then Dan called and he started arguing about getting picked up by Jen or me and Hannah... and he was sweet enough to let me continue reading my book and he called Jen to pick him up:)...yeah thas my man:):);* Then the next thing i know he's standing there looking at me with the cutest look on his face and looking fine as hell:)...OoOoOo baby!!! But anyways, we finished with barnes and nobles and Hannah said she needed to get her ring sized for a ring that she said Scott was going to get for her so we went to the jewelry store where she picked out a ring that i wished Dan would get for me too so i could have one just like it...but then we decided to go to best buy...the best place in the world and me and Dan looked at the IPOD i wanted and then him and Jen saw an old co-worker...I think his name was Jake or something...but that doesn't matter...so yeah they stopped talking to him and decided to walk around so Dan could look for some XBOX controller (the big one lol) but he decided it was too expensive so we all just went and looked through the DVD section and Dan ended up buying 3 awesome movies...Donnie Darko, Neverending Story, and Edward Scissorhands:). Then we left best buy and piled into Hannah's car and this is where all the fun began...but I'm sure that you dont want to hear about that so we'll just skip to the part after we went back to Styx after getting my car and we played this "p-game" that Dan and Jen were talking about and it was actually quite fun and I participated in like two of the pictures:) yay me!!! But then Kevin and Jen decided to go home when we said we were going to watch a movie at Dan's house and yeah...you can leave the rest to your imagination;):*

*cherry stealer>:*

Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: lala

November 18th, 2004

09:01 pm

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I'm in love with this song
I don't need to be anything other
Than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other
Than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other
Than the birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going, is knowing where I'm coming from
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one who noticed?
I can't be the only one who's learned
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
Can I have everyone's attention please?
If you're not like this and that, you're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain
The crust of creation
My whole situtaion-made from clay to stone
And now I'm telling everybody
I don't want to be
Anything other that what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I don't want to be

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Gavin DeGraw- I don't want to be

November 17th, 2004

10:21 pm

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I hate being sick!!
Being sick sucks ass!!! I started feeling sick on monday morning, monday night it got worse, tuesday morning I would have felt horrible if I had to go to school so I stayed home, tuesday night I felt a hell of a lot better, and today I feel okay. I went to school today which was interesting. Its amazing how much being sick affects you. Physically I always feel fatigued, mentally I can't concentrate, emotionally I'm not really here. I really wish I felt better so I could get back to being myself. Oh well, I guess I will just have to wait it out. Hopefully tomorrow will be better :)

Current Mood: sore
Current Music: D12-"Git Up"

November 14th, 2004

09:34 pm

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I'm lost in my life, trapped in my mind
Unable to uncover
the part of me left behind.

I hide within my feelings like a child underneath their bed.
Afraid of the monsters
that lurk inside my head.

I look through the memories, 1,000 nights of dreams
My wildest unfulfilled
Some closer than it seems.

Innocence, once bliss, now mocks my waking life
Naive laughter cuts deeper
With your sharpened knife.

I'll retreat into myself, the place I don't feel low
There's nothing anyone can do
Its the only defense I know.

Current Mood: artistic

05:22 pm

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I love this song
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

[in the background]
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

Yeah
[softly]
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Try so hard to say goodbye

Current Mood: okay

November 11th, 2004

12:47 am

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yay!!
Today kicked so much ass no one can understand (well except maybe dan!) There are no words to describe how awesome it was!!!!! Ahhh I'm so sublimely happy :)

Current Mood: ecstatic

November 9th, 2004

03:40 pm

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my brain spillage
So lately I have been writting poems at school just as a way to release some of the tension and anger I have been feeling. The first one I wrote in civics on monday and the other I wrote on tuesday during math. Don't ask me what they are about because more than likely I'm not going to tell you, but I just want to put them out there to spill my brains out to you guys without actually saying anything straight forward. If you can figure them out good for you but don't look too much into it.

I never know what to say to you, there are so many things I want to
I'm afraid of myself
There are things I've wanted to do
But I'm terrified of the id.
I know there's nothing I could do
To make you leave
I can't say the same for myself
Sometimes I want to see myself and inhabit some other being
I'm a book with so many events but a binding made of steel.
I want to open I want to be easier on me
Letting go is the hardest thing.
Impossible. With the will to acheive but the fear to leave.
I eat up the vulnerability, I let it inhabit me
It goes through my body overtaking everything
I trust no one with my mind and yet most with my life
I have been betrayed.
Inner most thoughts divulged to a sacred few.
The whole world knowing, my whole world knowing.
I trust you more than most
I now see the faults I have harbored
Blindly going through life unaware of the damage
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I understand now more than I did before
I've slowly sawed off the hands of my friends
Jagged edges
The sea of red engulfing everything
A hand to feel a hand
I finally understand.

"As Small as a Pill"

Don't talk to me.
You fill others with your tremendous lies.
With your hidden agenda starting to show
I'm not sure of our friendship anyomre
You release your hardened and bruised soul
Hurting others so they will feel some pain.
Your obsessive nature makes your life impossible to see clearly.
The opaque screen skews all your visions.
Your clouded brain works to decode
Scrambling the messages.
Displaying psuedo wisdom, people are made slaves to your falsehoods.
Unable to sift through the words to find subconcious desires.
Subliminal actions can damage uncontrolably
Take control of that anger, the hurt, the obesession
Reflecting yourself on others crumbles the foundations we have worked so hard to build.
Your tongue flickers as a serpents before a kill.
A self claimed voyeur, I have no choice but to hide.
You instigate suspicion on both sides.
Flaunting your connection
Making mine feel lessened
Dropping the infant everyday
Making reconciliation closer to impossible.

Your irrational reasoing, illogical, a fake world inside your head.
Set yourself out in the heat, watch the rat grey fuzz birth itself on your own flesh.
Leave others out of your destructive path.
Proven in the end, the god will leave when your bliss can be taken painlessly
Belittling all it has stood for, making it as small as a pill.

You push at me to succumb, to be just like you
Are these hints of regret?
Jealousy pushing through the seams of our relationship?
Snapping threads.
I, no need to release to keep an interest.
You, letting in too quickly
Sealing the doom.
The let down
The end
End.

Current Mood: pensive

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November 8th, 2004

06:41 pm

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o1. Look in your cd player, is there a cd?
yes..two actually...blink 182 "enema of the state" and goo goo dolls "dizzy up the girl"

o2. Look in your VCR/DVD player, is there a movie?
ummm there is a game...halo

o3. If there happens to be music playing right now, what is it?
black eyed peas "anxiety"

o4. What are you wearing?
pink shirt and brown pants

o5. Look down, what's the first thing that catches your eye?
my feet

o6. Look out the window, what's the weather like?
craptacular

o7. If you were to hit redial on your phone right now, where would it call?
dan...his cell phone

o8. What are you planning on doing next as soon as you get offline?
take a shower probably

[Full Name]
Laura Danielle Wright and my jewish name is Tova Meriam

[Nicknames]
Miss Dance, Miss Dance USA, the jew, danielle (damn you dan :) )
[Screen Names]
jdismyhomeboy

[I Would Never Become A.....]
a serial killer

[My Parents Are...]
pretty tight

[I Can't Stop Listening To...]
the anxiety song

[Every Weekend I...]
sleep, hang out with friends, fuck around (not like that)

[I Hate School Because...]
I have to wake up early to go

[My Favorite Song of the Moment Is...]
anxiety

[I Enjoy...]
being alive

[I Dress The Way I Do Because...]
its comfortable, I find something that catches my eye so I buy it

[If I were]...
If I Were a Machine, I would be a cd player
If I Were a Kind of Weather, I would be san diego sunny
If I Were a Mythical Creature, I would be a fairy
If I were a Kind of Profession, I would be an actor
If I Were an Animal, I Would Be a panda or a bat (BISEXUAL BAT...DO YOU REMEMBER THAT ILSA!!!)
If I Were Anything In The World, I would be me.
If I Were a Color, I would be pink.
If I Were an Emotion, I would be happy.
If I Were a Movie Star, I would be Marilyn Monroe.
Do You Have Any Allergies? - nope
Have You Adored Someone? - yes
What Do You Smell Like Right Now? - me

[Do you prefer]...
Hot or cold: hot
Sweet or sour: sour
Spicy or bland: Spicy.
Black or white: white
Half-full or half-empty: full
More or less: depends
Soft or hard: lol is that a loaded question or what?? hard..you can't do anything with soft stuff.
Rough or smooth: Smooth.
Air, land or sea: sea
Light or dark: Dark.
E-mail or letter: I like regular letters...they make me feel extra special...but I also like emails just fine
Phone or instant message: depends
Day or night: Night.
Past, present or future: Present
Mind or body: mind
Consciousness/subconsciousness/unconsciousness: SuBcOnCiOuSnEsS
Water or juice: water
Ocean or pool: ocean...I really want to learn to surf
Rain or shine: SHINE!!!!!
Love/Sex: Love
Are you Hetero-/Homo-/Bi-sexual?: hetero
Are you in love?: depends on with what
Are you a virgin?: yup
Have you gotten your first kiss?: yes
Do you have a crush? ummm hell yah
Do you enjoy being in love/having a crush?: yes most of the time
How far have you gone with a "lover: I don't want to answer that question
Do you believe in hookups (sexual relations without emotion)?: not anymore
Is there a difference between a crush and being in love?: what do you think?
Do you believe in true love?: Yes
Can long-distance relationships work?: depends
Have you ever had a long-distance relationship?: No
Have you ever been married?: no
Have you ever been in love?: honestly...yes
If so, how many times?: once
Have you fallen in love in the past and regretted it?: nope its a learning experience
How old were you when you got your first kiss?: freshman..I can even remember the exact date (April 13th 2002), place (anthony's house on his chair in his living room), approximate time (afternoon), what was on tv (we were watching ghost world)and person (anthony).
Have you ever broken someone's heart?: I hope not
Have you ever sexually harassed someone?: ummm not purposely
Have you ever been sexually harassed yourself?: yes
Have you ever been jealous of a friend for their boy/girlfriend?: yes
Have you ever been jealous of your boy/girlfriend's "close" friend(s): yes
Have you ever been jealous of your boy/girlfriend's ex?: yes
Have you ever gotten back together with an ex?: no...thank god
Have you ever gotten together with a friend's ex?: no
Have you ever had a crush on a teacher?: haha..for sure
Have you ever been in love with someone so much that you've cried over them?: no...but I have cried over someone before
Have/would you ever see(n) an "......." movie? yes
Do you enjoy French-kissing?: yeah...oh man good times
Do you keep a picture of your beloved somewhere?: no
Would you (honestly) sacrifice your life for your beloved?: I don't know
Have/would you ever use whipped cream, hot wax, et cetera, in a sexual act?: hahaha...no comment
What do you look for in love (mentally/emotionally)?: Someone thats there for me that wont fuck around with my emotions...someone that will understand me and accept my flaws as just being part of me and wont pressure me into doing anything that I don't want to and especially someone I can have LOTS of fun with and do some serious damage :)
Do cherries or strawberries have any sexual meaning for you?: hmmm
Have you ever had your heart broken?: yes
Are you (honestly) afraid of commitment?: not with someone I can trust
Are you attracted to people with accents? fuck yes!
Do you have a memento from a previous relationship? yes...but I don't know where it is...I actually might have thrown it out
Ever remember the certain smell, sight, sound, or taste that reminds you of a lover?: yes...most def

_Miscellaneous:

What song is playing right now : green day...minority
Do you enjoy living in your town?: yes
Do you smoke?: no
Do you drink?: occasionally
How often do you shower?: everyday
Do you trust others easily?: no
Have you ever lied to a friend?: yes :(
Are you trustworthy?: i think so
Are you anyone's secret-keeper?: yes
Are you a daredevil?: sometimes
Have/would you skydive?: no..terrified of heights
Have/would you bungee jump?: no
Have/would you play "Chicken"?: no
If granted one wish, what would it be?: to be live a wonderful life where I am sublimely happy
Which do you prefer -- slow or fast dancing: whatever
Do you make friends easily?: I think so...I've been told I give off a certain energy that people are attracted to
Do you color your hair?: not anymore
Do you wear makeup?: yes
Do you collect anything?: no

_Friendships/Relationships....

Do you get annoyed easily?: depends on what the person is doing...some things annoy me more than others
Would you consider yourself a depressed person?: definitely not
Do you dream often?: yes
Do you frequently daydream?: yes
Do you have any health problems?: I think I have gastric reflex disease
Have you ever had a near-death experience?: I have had one time where I seriously thought I might die
Have you ever been in a car accident?: thank god no
Have you ever had someone close to you die?: yes
Do you have any scars?: yeah
What is your earliest memory?: me wanting the master bedroom at my house when we moved...but finally settling with my room
Have you ever gotten in a physical fight?: not a really violent one...I've punched my brother
Have you ever fallen asleep on someone else's bed?: yes
Have you ever fallen asleep on someone else?: yes but not fully on them
Do you cry?: yes
Have you ever gotten in trouble with the police?: no
kicked out of the outside of In & Out. no
Have you ever committed a felony?: yes..but I have never been caught
Have you ever been skinny-dipping?: no
Do you believe in yourself?: yes
what song is playing now!: green day..boulevard of broken dreams
Are you done with this survey?: yup :)

Current Mood: and a little annoyed

November 7th, 2004

12:00 am

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L	Lucky
A	Awesome
U	Unusual
R	Refined
A	Ambivalent

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T	Temperamental
H	Haunting
E	Elitist

J	Judicial
E	Extreme
W	Warm

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J	Judicial
D	Distinguished
I	Intense
S	Sweet
M	Misunderstood
Y	Yummy
H	Honorable
O	Organic
M	Mushy
E	Elitist
B	Bashful
O	Organic
Y	Yucky

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Current Mood: happy

November 6th, 2004

07:52 am

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So yeah its 8 in the morning and I am awake...this sucks. I went to bed at 4 in the morning and woke up around 7 because my parents kept on coming into my room to make sure I was okay because my door was open and my light was on. I went into my room at about 3:30 last night and started to read and then I put the book down to rest my eyes and of course I ended up falling asleep. So my dad came into my room at 6:30 asking me if I was awake like 5 times so obviously I wasn't if I didn't answer the first time but he kept on asking so finally I woke up and was like "now I am" and he then asked me if I had stayed up all night and I told him that I stayed up most of the night and then he wanted to know if I was okay so I said yes but I did stay up for a reason but it was a long story. So then he left and I thought okay I can go back to sleep now but then half an hour later my mom comes into my room asking the same exact questions and she wouldn't let it go that easily so I told her what was going on with how I was talking to friends until late last night and I was just worried about people and shit so then I talked to her for about 45 minutes and after all that thinking it was impossible for me to go back to sleep...so now I am going to be running on 3 hours of sleep today which is just super lol. So if I get snippy or randomly fall asleep you can't say I didn't warn you :).

Current Mood: and tired :)

02:09 am

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Well today was a pretty damn good day! I went to school (blah) but I realized that I actually do like learning. The only problem with school is the way they set things up...they make it uninteresting, but I really do enjoy learning new things. I especially love my english class...I have the hardest time in it because I am not very good at being able to express my thoughts especially in writting but despite that I love that class. Ms. Caterina is crazy but she is a really good teacher and is easy to talk to if you need help with something and I actually feel like she knows what she is talking about which is sadly rare at mt. carmel. So yeah school was the same as usual and then after school we went to hannah's house (of course!)and we went on the computer and did the usual shit. Then I went home and took a shower and did the usual chores and stuff so I could get money (I really need a fucking job!!!) Then the usual people went to fridays along with some other people cause it was krista's birthday and that was awesome because I finally got to see dan this week!! except for hannah missing scott :( (if you ever need to talk about it hannah you can always call me.) Then after that we went to go see "saw" which was okay. I wasn't very impressed though...I was kinda expecting more, but I still had a really good time :). Tonight was one of the best times I have had in a long time!!!

*I really did miss you this week so I'm super happy I got to see you today :) :)*

Current Mood: and worried

12:50 am

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1. Who are you?

2. Are we friends?

3. When and how did we meet?

4. Do you have a crush on me?

5. Would you kiss me?

6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

7. Describe me in one word.

8. What was your first impression?

9. Do you still think that way about me now?

10. What reminds you of me?

11. If you could give me anything what would it be?

12. How well do you know me?

13. When's the last time you saw me?

14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

15. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?

16. How often do you call me? why?

October 31st, 2004

04:36 pm

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I haven't updated in the past couple days so today I was just like "what the fuck I need to update my live journal" so that is what I am doing right now. I don't really have anything new to write since everything that has happened in the past days someone else has written about so if you really want to know what I have been doing the past few days just read someone else's live journal. So I'm just going to write random shit since I love random stuff as we all know.

I really wanna watch the ring but I'm scared to.
I have a lot of hw I need to finish but I am too lazy to.
I'm unsatisfied with my life and I don't know how to change it.
I really just wanna go outside and run around by block singing.
I wish when I was hanging out with my friends we did more random stuff.
I wish I was in a band.
I love johnny depp.
Green Day is good.
fdjskafdjksafldsklafds
I love all of my friends.
I want to find someone who is my twin soul.
I want to find my identical hand twin
I want to go to greece someday.
Cheese is yummy
mmmm pumpkin pie.
Thanksgiving break in 3 weeks!
School sucks!
I wish my life was more exciting
I need to start swimming
Red nail polish is pretty
Why were matt and scott trying to see who could cum on the ceiling in my dream?
Was Freud crazy?
I wonder where eric is
Do dogs go to heaven?
Does my cat like to watch me change clothes?
Do aliens exist?
why is my keyboard black?
I want to be smarter
Am I too hard on myself?
Why do I want everything to be perfect?
Why am I embarassed by other peoples actions and yet not by my own?
Do mormons really get to populate their own planet?
How much wood could a woodchuck chuck?
Will I ever be where I want to be?

Alright thats enough of my random thoughts. I hope you all enjoyed them cause there is plenty more where that came from. Maybe I will let you all into my brain again tomorrow :)

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Current Music: Korn- word up

October 28th, 2004

06:01 pm

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The survey
[x] Name: Laura Danielle Wright
[x] Birthdate: 03/07/1987
[x] Birthplace: Torrence, CA
[x] Current Location: PQ
[x] Eye Color: blue
[x] Hair Color: blondish
[x] Righty or Lefty: righty
[x] Zodiac Sign: pisces
[x] Innie or Outtie: Innie
-----------------DESCRIBE------------------
[x] The shoes you wore today: pink and black converse
[x] Your eyes: pretty
[x] Your fears: heights, spiders, dark (sometimes), being buried alive, I think I also have a fear of being intimate with people (and I'm not just talking about physically!)
-----------------WHAT IS------------------
[x] Your most overused phrase on aim: lol
[x] Your thoughts first waking up: whatever I was dreaming about or its really cold
[x] The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: eyes
[x] Your best physical feature: eyes
[x] Your bedtime: whenever I'm tired
[x] Your most missed memory: the "B's" and talking to eric

-----------------YOU PREFER------------------
[x] Pepsi or Coke: coke
[x] McDonald's or Burger King: neither
[x] Single or group dates: depends
[x] Adidas or Nike: neither
[x] Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla
[x] Cappuccino or coffee: depends

-----------------DO YOU------------------
[x] Smoke: no
[x] Cuss: yes
[x] Take a shower: ummm...yeah!
[x] Have a crush(es): yes
[x] Who are they: dan
[x] Do you think you've been in love?: no
[x] Want to go to college: yes
[x] Like high school: aspects of it are fun
[x] Want to get married: I don't know...not anytime soon at least
[x] Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: yes
[x] Believe in yourself: Yeah
[x] Get motion sickness: no
[x] Think you're a health freak: I think I have my own little eating phobias and shit but I wouldn't go as far as to say I'm a health freak
[x] Like thunderstorms: every once and awhile
[x] Play an instrument: flute and deck the halls and silent night on the piano
------------IN THE PAST MONTH DID:/:HAVE YOU------------
[x] Go to the mall: yes
[x] Eaten sushi:um no
[x] Been on stage: no :(
[x] Been dumped: no
[x] Gone skating: no
[x] Made homemade cookies: yes
[x] Dyed your hair: no
[x] Stolen anything: no
-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
[x] Flown on a plane: yes
[x] Missed school because it was raining?: no...I'm not stupid!
[x] Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: yes
[x] Cried during a Movie?: yes...sobbing during the green mile
[x] Ever thought an animated character was hot?: no...no one should
[x] Had an imaginary friend: yes...jaqcuesa walka (he was french..I was like 5)
[x] Cut your hair: yes
[x] Had crush on a teacher?: yeah
[x] Been caught "doing something": no
[x] Been called a tease: yes
[x] Gotten beaten up ?: no
[x] Been in a fight: verbally
[x] Shoplifted: yeah

-----------------THE FUTURE------------------
[x] Age you hope to be married: I don't think about it
[x] Numbers and Names of Children: I don't know if I want kids but I like the names..Ruby, Ilsa (hehe), Lara, Sebastian, Ryan (for a girl), and Devin
[x] Descibe your Dream Wedding: don't really have one
[x] How do you want to die?: I don't like to think about that
[x] What do you want to be when you grow up?: psychologist, actor, a dancer in my totally awesome dance company.
[x] What country would you most like to visit?:greece
-----------------OPPOSITE SEX------------------
[x] Best eye color: blue
[x] Best hair color: don't care
[x] Short or long hair: short
[x] Best height: taller than me
[x] Best weight: i dont care
[x] Best first date location: something entertaining, stupid, and random
[x] Best first kiss location: ??
-----------------NUMBER OF-----------------
[x] Number of girlfriends youve had: none
[x] Number of drugs taken illegally: ummm I don't know
[x] Number of people I could trust with my life? almost all my friends and family
[x] Number of CDs that I own: a lot!
[x] Number of piercings: 5
[x] Number of tattoos: none :(
[x] Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: I don't know
[x] Number of scars on my body: 4? I think. They are all on my right knee
[x] Number of things in my past that I regret: just one
----------------FAVORITES------------------
[x] Shampoo: ?
[x] Fav Color(s): pink and black
[x] Day/Night: night
[x] Summer/Winter: summer
[x] Lace or Satin: satin
[x] Fave Cartoon Character: south park
[x] Fave Food: california burrito and chinese food
[x] Fave Movies: too many to say
[x] Fave sport: ice hockey...that shit is hilarious

----------------RIGHT NOW------------------
[x] Wearing: pink shirt, jeans, black sweatshirt
[x] Drinking: nothing
[x] Thinking about: lots of stuff
[x] Listening to: fiona apple

---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
[x] Cried: no
[x] Worn jeans: yes
[x] Met someone: no
[x] Drove a car: yes
[x] Talked on the phone: yes
---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN--------------
[x] Yourself: fuck yeah...if you don't believe in yourself you can't expect anyone else to
[x] Your friends: definitely
[x] Santa Clause?: no
[x] Tooth Fairy: no
[x] Destiny/Fate: yes
[x] Angels: yes
[x] Ghosts: yes
[x] UFO's: no
[x] God: yes

--------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
[x] Do you ever wish you had another name?: I used to but then I found out where my name came from and now I like it
[x] Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: not at the moment
[x] Do you like anyone?: yes
[x] Which one of your friends acts the most like you?: nicole
[x] Who have you known the longest of your friends?: ilsa
[x] Are you close to any family member?: my mommy
[x] Who do you hang around the most?: hannah
[x] When have you cried the most: when anthony broke up with me (oh god that was bad), when shiloh died, when I found out my grandma was going to die,
[x] What's the best feeling in the world?: emotionally..being loved. physically...I'll just leave that to everyone's imagination ;)
[x] Worst Feeling?: emotionally...someone you care about hating you. physically...being sick

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